Drawing with Jordan. S.A.M. from Cannon Busters. How to Make Light Based Computers. Black/White Hole Travel. My Sleeping Habits. The Whole Shebang.


So I wanted to try drawing someone else’s character for the first time and I chose S.A.M. from Cannon Busters because the show is pretty good even though I’m only a few episodes in. I used someone else’s piece as reference and did my best to draw as I saw how it looked to me to improve my eye as well as get something added to the channel that wasn’t just dull Loomis videos where I draw heads oddly, haha.

The goal was just to get a drawing done and see how well I’d done in regards to the original. But I made the mistake of looking for other references while I was working and lost the original that I had planned on comparing my work to. One sec let me see if I can find it again.

Here it is!

from Blerd.com.

You can see that I made a myriad of mistakes while I was working on it. The face is too v like, not enough cheek fat in the composition. The eyes are the wrong colour. I love that there are gears in her eyes. It’s just a solid nice touch that goes to show how much design work went into her character creation and the creation of the show on the whole.

In fact lets pull in my version and do a comparison so that I may learn from my mistakes.

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This is the thumbnail from the youtube video as you can probably already tell.

So right off the bat we’ve got the fore mentioned jawline issues. We’ve got highlights where mine would reflect like they were more off of metallic surfaces rather than hair–if you see how they do theirs they use “z”‘s of light to so differing heights and shapes of hair.
I forgot the highlights on the gold. That wasn’t so obvious to me at the time. I remembered to do the shading of the ears and earrings under the hair.  The line work is also much nicer. Leaner I would think.

You’ll see that my hair extends farther back that I only got from showing myself other drawings of her and that includes how her crown lies in her hair. I find cheek fat absolutely the hardest thing to get right at the moment. I’m sure once I get it down my drawings will improve dramatically and they won’t look so anorexic or as though they were created from the eighties and nineties like Shin Chan and the like.

I also got the lighting on the jacket backwards. Why would the large amount of hair reflect light and then shade the jacket? Because in my head that made sense. What I wasn’t expecting was that her hair itself threw shadow behind it.

Then there’s the skin colour, and if I had the image with me I could have just pulled from that and thrown them on top of the job, but learning colour recognition is a huge deal in painting and a super useful skill when you need it when mixing the slight gradients needed for skin tone and what’s in the foreground and background–at least with my accounts with black and white airbrushing.

I would love to be able to do character turn-arounds but I’m honestly freaked out about them for some reason. Artists worry I suppose. At least it’s not artists block, which I don’t seem to suffer too badly from, I just change whatever it is I’m working on into a new subject and move on for the most part. I’m sure that’ll come back to bite me at some point.

For the video I also made the mistake of using my Loomis setup because I don’t know how to set up a second account using Streamlabs OBS which has been by far the easiest way to get going on starting with the software. The older OBS just throws me for a loop.

Oh man, if you watch the video, you’ll see how much trouble I had with the lips. I had to remember that there’s a V in the upper join of the sides of the upper lip and that took me forever to remember.

Am I happy with what I’ve done so far with it? No of course not. I can do so much better, I just have to have patience and unlock the ability within myself to get going at a real pace. If you’re never happy with your work it always pushes you to create new and thoughtful devices and that may as well be the case with most things because liking everything you do and not realising it needs improvements is, I think, vastly greater of an error than thinking the other way.

For a first attempt it is what it is–something to be done with and to look on with an eye to improve.

If you’ve read this far, please let me know what characters or real life people you would like to see and in what style. I haven’t done a sharpie piece in forever and wouldn’t mind trying my hand at it again now that my tremor is manageable once again.

*Had a dinner break and watched some more of the show.
Apparently I can’t type and think clearly when multiple people are chattering in my ear, I wonder why-haha.

Holy crap I got my first youtube comment and it was positive. That made my night. They recommended another youtuber so I subscribed and thanked them for their comment.

I’ve got to fill out another thousand or so words, so I figured I might as well tell you about my day.

As you may have known already I haven’t been sleeping–or that really, I’ve been sleeping oddly, waking up at 1 a.m. and then 3 a.m. each morning, and choosing whether to get up and do stuff then or not. It’s usually a sign on my mania being present so I’ve been given Klonopin and Hydroxizine to alleviate the mania and usually it helps but some days I’m sleeping until 1-6 p.m. and then getting on with my day. It’s not really letting me get a schedule going with this sort of thing, as you’re meant to do which I apologize for immensely.

As it is I’m trying to find new music to listen to, and Jon Bellion is doing it for me as the song JT fits my illness just a little too well. The problem with being a paranoid schizoaffective is that when you believe something silly it’s is absolutely real to you and it’ll last months or years before you’re able to break away from the feeling that the illness brings along with it. It’s so strong still that I had to put the song on.

It’s shit like that that makes life harder than it needs to be because even if you have a rational thought process or come up with something novel because you have this terrible illness you’re considered less than and it just feels like why do it then. Why try to help people when you can sit on a farm vertical farming waiting for the collapse that’s coming.

Not to mention that the Ill Mind of Hopsin V is great if you’re in a grumpy mood. He just flows his mind as a true lyricist would which I have massive respect for.

Just under 800 words left. What else shall we talk about?
Have you ever thought about how to manipulate black holes using white holes to create black hole parabolas which you can “stretch” around an area of space and or a ship if you like, and then do that again to the space outside, and keep repeating it until you get to the point that the ship travels towards the front of the empty space as its forcing movement inside the canister, and you release the outer shell forcing outside movement, all the way to the inner shell and you’ll get near light speed travel as the shells release. The only problem is that you need a clear path to travel so turning is done in stages rather than in one straight shot through the spacescape.  It’s just a matter of making enough shells so that you get an acceleration that’s bearable and a deacceleration that doesn’t destroy its landing area or the people inside the ship. You would reinforce the ships hull to take the pressures of the controlled black holes. How do you control a black hole you ask?

With a white hole. Which is just an electron density field as a white hole is something that lets electrons and light out but nothing may pass inside into it. If my tags take off and work, or if I’m ever given the chance to really make something worthwhile like that instead of just twiddling my mental thumbs I already have plans to design ships that may travel in such a manner and they’re gorgeous. The way the light arc lens curves at the front of the ship is utterly beautiful to think about. This is the sort of shit I think about when I can’t sleep. Not just how they might work but actually ways of getting them working the way I think they should so that if anyone in power ever asked me to get things made I would be able to get things sorted in some manner, but I doubt that will ever happen now. Apparently I pissed everyone off and that means you live a life of sickness.

Just over 400 words left. Lets get there.

I’ve had this idea for a light based computer where you bounce a L.I.G.O level laser off of the neutrons or protons off of a suitable atom–say silicon since they have the same number of each and they’re considered your yes or no functions based on their refraction-the only thing you have to worry about is increasing the speed of the spin of the atom while you get it up to “read” speed where the laser can’t increase it’s speed any faster and you’re getting reliable yes/no information based on the refraction rates. These refractional rays are bounced to a crystal array that offers itself as a mathematical operational method. The issue is do we define the crystals 1 array deep or more depending on whether you want it to count for more processes or processing time dependent on build. Then you would “read” the crystals output from above/(some open side) the crystal array and make the lasers hit each other and read the temperature of the crystal or change in lights frequency (if you used more than one light type) and that’s your bit of data as a full mathematical function. It means you can just bounce longer lasers through longer crystals refracting from atom to atom and make functions and read the answer at the end. It may be faster than quantum computing but I have no idea honestly, I’m still learning about that. I just know it would travel at the speed of light and involve very few atoms and that’s pretty damn quick. You would have to account for Feynmens issue of protons going multiple directions but that just means to be consistent you build the buffer system into the “computer” so that it hits where each proton is meant to hit, and if we have to multi slit it to get it to function that can be done inherently within the crystal structure because all we need is some readable data, not all of it. Unless that data somehow alters the outcome of the answer of course. We’re looking for read data, not read all the data at data read cap at the moment. That can come with initial improvements.

Thirty nine words to go.
I wonder what would happen to the man if he realised that reality was a joke played on him, sat down, and began to write his own punchlines to the subculture’s own development. Knowledge.


Breaking hydrocarbons/micro-plastics using a physical method/doped graphene.

The problem with hydrocarbon derived fuels is that at a point there won’t be enough fuel created to power the fleet as the global levels are lowered and the fleet increases. Totally useful in slowing the poisoning of the planet but tags power anything indefinitely with no non recyclable waste if production is designed correctly. Plus hydrogen powered cars suffer the same issues as refilling stations for current gen Tesla’s. Plus it still acts like a gas. Non poisoning but it runs out, and whatever trace amounts are left in the runoff from the exhaust cover the traveled areas. You’d move to tags at that point anyway. Plus you’d still need oil for moving parts outside the propulsion system. I bet you could build a full maglev car if you had the time and energy.

I’m assuming they’re just breaking the bond of the weakened particles needed to get residual water, similar to how the helium screen would do that if hydro carbons were cycled through that at the right speed/ angle/rotational velocity. You make a guide up a curved edge, forcing the hydro carbon to orient itself as needed for breakage as the helium spins by running water or whatever over it causing it to spin and clip the bond at it’s needed bond. The fragmented versions would travel and orient themselves at different locations but do the same thing. Leaving water on one side after the screen and the broken chemical bonds on the other. Then it’s a matter of taking the dirty remainder with partial bonds because even atomic tolerances aren’t perfect yet still in the water and screening them at a tighter tolerance, until you only end up with the remaining materials within an acceptable level. Even breaking those into their initial components if needed for near pure collection, which you could then rebond and store or release into the wild to clean out the area. Pure hydrogen, pure oxygen, carbon to be broken down for reuse.

I suppose there are other atoms like helium where they’re non bindable but larger. It just means the tolerance differences are wider so more would get through potentially though you could likely get a heavier more powerful breaking mechanism out of them though they would need a larger pushing force.

You could just use straight carbon and orient oxygen or hydrogen from the hydro carbon, whichever needs to be broken off first and create meshes that jut out like grater or tumblers and break off and catch the atoms. They would be moved down the line through vibrational or rotational means, whichever you wanted. You could ever create a radius of cylindrical hydrocarbons and break off the atoms as needed. It would be purely mechanical and leave nothing but carbons to be broken down in the center of the device. Or you could use a straight edge atomic grater and shave each side of their non carbon atoms.

You would have to allow full bonding of the grating atoms and passage so atoms wouldn’t jam up the system. Also you would have to be constantly moving the assembly so they didn’t float or sink into the passageway.

You would need to bring the grater down with enough force to hold part of the hydrocarbon in place and break off a chunk… by vibrating the atoms into place before swinging them up into the reduction system. Then you reorientate the partial hydro carbon and repeat the process until only carbon falls through to a gathering stage. You would also have to remove the water molecules with a vacuum as they break off or it would just recondense and form new hydrocarbons or a layer of dirty water in the system. It depends on how many times you need to break the bonds really.



Hydrogen 120 pm

Carbon 70 pm

Oxygen 60

Email to Troy with idea.

move slower.

Breaking atomic bonds. Since different atoms have different bond energy strengths graphene may not be big enough to sever the bond. But if you hit the weakest point of the point hard enough it may be able to overcome the overall strength (there is some loss between atoms but reinforcement at part of the bond where it is the most complete, around those areas are weaker areas where you’d want the separator to push under and break the bond. You’d also have to super cool the hydrocarbons to lengthen the bond length been the atoms without causing the water molecules to freeze, unless that’s helpful.

You could also use a tumbler method of grating the molecules and gathering the remainders on the other side and depending on which side you grated from you would likely form other larger hydro carbons before being able to break them down to their original stage again. Need to look up the types.

Couldn’t you dope the outer layers of collection atoms so that they attract the hydrogen atoms more than the static carbons in the hydrocarbons. If they’re electrically based you could cycle them on and off at key moments and vacuum the water into a collection plate. You could use doped graphene. You could then rotate them around the outer ring so that they dope concentrically and anti-concentrically at opposite levels pulling the atoms around. It’s slower, but once they “attach” to two or more open atoms they have a higher chance of breaking.

You could also, if needed, build meshes with exact holes for the hydrocarbons to lie flat into and then pull them apart from the inside by forcing them outward and bending them into some obtuse space.

This would also work with micro plastics.

Anyway it’s an idea.


Learning a bit of perspective.

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Today so far has been learning about foreshortening and above and below perspectives. These are my attempts as I followed along MikeyMegaMega here. Who, other than a fascination with large breasted women from the videos I watched, was extremely insightful about his technique and made it a breeze to get into it straight away and since I had been starring at a man make huge tits for an hour I decided to try a small nude, which I don’t normally do.

I’ve had a tough couple of days as I missed my chance to go to Vegas to see my younger brother perhaps for the last time before I move home back to New Zealand. It depends whether we’re up here for the holidays of not but if I am he said he would visit and that’s a great feeling. I just made him his birthday present but haven’t told him what it is yet.


lenin shirt

I hope he likes it. I make a little bit of money selling stickers and shirts per month that once in a while I get to treat myself to a new hat or shirt or shoes through paypal. So I made and bought him this with that money. It’s Lenin in Communist colours. He commissioned me to a painting of it but it won’t be done in time so I decided he might want to wear the art instead of just looking at it. I love wearing my own designs over corporate logos and fandom pieces because it makes me feel unique and just a minor designer at heart.

I’ve been upped on prazosin for ptsd nightmares. Childhood-adult abuse isn’t a joke. Now I take two or three mgs a day–I’m not sure. I forget honestly. I’ve got 19 bottles of meds to look at tonight and I can’t even remember if I took this mornings meds. I just know I’m sleeping until twelve most days after waking to feed the girls.

I had an interesting conversation with my psych though. Apparently only seeing one person once or twice per week isn’t a whole lot of human contact and isn’t healthy but I don’t know how to remedy that when I have so little money.

I have a mensa membership so I thought I might do the breakfast with them and see what they’re like. I wasn’t a huge fan of them when I joined the first time. I got a perfect score on my I.Q. battery and they were still condescending. I broke the damned test so it couldn’t give a proper reading by maxing it out and they’re like there’s only one score that qualifies you for the coveted membership. I do like the card though. Makes you feel like a triple A member.

Oh on some good news I’m down almost three pounds and if it keeps going I may be able to go on a mild stimulant to help me stop binge eating when I feel like punishing myself.

Okay this is completely random. But I designed a new type of (I think–information is hard to come by through wikipedia and theses) nuclear reactor using single domain micromagnetics using hexaferrum eplison ferrite steel. Basically you compress the ferrite until it change atomic structure and it gains addition atoms which is where the radioactivity comes from. Plus because its a magnetic material if you surround it by pyrolytic carbon (which repels both poles equally) you’ll get forced movement, so you get the spin needed to traverse graphene wiring to gather energy like a regular generator, but these are as small as physically possible so you could replace battery and be scaled up to any size to produce any amount. You just need vastly more pco than rotational material. You can also coat it in SiO4 (quartz) to keep it contained and warmer in space travel/durable.

But all you need is 13 GPa to compress the ferrite into hexaferrum, carbon has a GPa rating of 26 and you us diamond toppers and stoppers on the bottom and they have a rating of 542 GPa so that the whole thing is contained. And the greatest thing is if the thing opens it reverts back to ferrite and loses it radioactivity very quickly meaning no/less chance for damage to the environment and the user.

I got so annoyed at people ignoring me that I put the chemical break down on a hat and wear it around town. So far no ones guess what it is, but it’ll be in the Asimov comic since the whole point of the comic is to expand on my designs.



I even sent what I had to Marc Gibson at Nasa but he ignored me since I’m self taught and could be wrong. Or perhaps scrapping his email wasn’t the way to go, haha. Who knows. Who cares.

The inner binding agent between the ferrite atoms are carbon. You may not be able to tell by the white squares but they a 12 phase or two 6 phase generators since you use both sides of the domain at once or you end up with single domain micromagnets over time as one side invariably breaks down before the other. This way they break down closer together if the half lives of the atoms is relatively closed (based on atom diameter/circumference).

Ugh I’m so bored. I wish to create to my potential.

Have a wonderful night.

Ideas on quantum computing. Spiral quantum computer. Cross index 3-d. Solid or superfluid oxygen low loss fast switching optical switch (radial).

These are all just ideas I’ve had over the past few days while I can’t sleep or am bored.

Set up the connections between electron joints so that parallel connections pattern predictably once mapped.

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You do this by applying rings of electrons fast enough but not overbearing around Atoms until you find their wave functions.

Then you join them.

Then their rotational points are juiced and patterned. Cross index in 3-d. And you get a matrix for full computation within a finite space. Using atoms with differing wave functions gives you depending on whether you want to get past qubit measurements and get into the next area after that by superimposing vastly more options of travel and spin then you’ll see that not only does it go side ways and up but backwards and down as well. Start from the center or not. It just changes the speed of retaliation and production against the boundaries.

Then you can get patterns within patterns. Fractal states of information as collisions occur and you build higher function math from them.

Quantum computer uses light. Photons.

Ultra fast low loss optical switching.

Mass of a proton:

electron mass / 1836 =

4.96153789 × 10-34 kilograms


4.96153789 * (10^(-34)) kilograms =

4.96153789 × 10^-19 picograms

1 picogram [pg] = 602213665167.52 Atomic mass unit [u]

Carbon 12.0107 u = 7.2330077e+12 pg

Oxygen 8 u = 4.8177093e+12 pg

You’d have a pyramid of carbon with an atom of oxygen fullerene in the center as an optical switch reinforced outside from the temp so there’s only needed size for photon transmission. Heat cool the inside to keep it change state between solid aNd liquid or just solid.

If solid it’s blue—supposedly best colour being the coolest. It’s easily space stable but may burn out unless super fluid. But you could lattice it as a liquid and freeze it using carbon as the cooling agent to get below superfluid state becoming optically superclear as long as the fullerene pyramids are secured and wrapped in tape or foil to not over expand and keep fluid stably inside container. But -455 is 22 times ish larger than their earth size. So you’d make crystal lattices of solid oxygen and focus the beams as well as build switching beams.

So not tiny but not huge either. 170 x 22 1700 3400 3740 pm. Per carbon. Times two 7480 pm. .007480 microns.

Oh no you wouldn’t. You’d do a radial encompassing of carbon. Not a pyramid unless tiny focus is needed. Radial allows tubular bonds and liquid oxygen superfluid construction around any angle.

Radial design.

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Audio transcript:

So with the electrons of liquid oxygen cooled to the level of space which I think is negative 400 degrees so that’s at least minus 200 kelvin. So that make that a solid. You line up the electron points. Where they bond and those are your focal points. For the uh low loss high precision light switch and you can get a directional one by cycling the speed of the electron spin as they’re bonded because as they slow down because they’re a solid I don’t know if they’re going to stop or not or if they would,but you’d measure the cycle of number eight is bailable for this number of micro seconds and then it goes 7 dead (or less depending on bit rate) and then 8 again and it’ll carry it so you just ping it on number 8 it carries it around and pings it to the next part and if you wanted to you could ping it continuously all the valence electrons for oxygen or however many are avail label in the build which I think there are 2 since it’s a single atom build easier and less fractal but you could easily add more. It’s a lot of time. Once you do the timing you should be good really.

You could double bond 3 of the carbon from the oxygen and have 4 times the connection speed. It depends on what you want.

If atomic clocks can measure the state of electrons jumping 1/1836 times that will measure the speed of a photon over some distance. Assume C. Electron is 2200 km /sec /1836= 1.19825708061 so we know that the distance traveled is roughly 1.2 kilometers away so you’d have a receiver there. Node system. entanglement is roughly useful because you can have non entangled and entangled as 1/0 and as long as placement is correct they should start computing relative to outside forces. Does an entangle particle hitting another entangled particle make a quad or does it split it into four single lower states. Do the states become additive or are they reversing between each other.

You just build receivers that can take both types in either state fired from either an array a cube or sphere to and encompassing shape of a larger size that lets you translate the material into knowable mathematics.

From there if you can get change states between entangled and non that travel the same distance to be received you can create higher order math functions.

Can you Tri split a photon. Yes. Can a photon be split into it natural seven or so states of light waves. All of those are information schema. Or mathematical languages/operators if you want to base them off of straight photon is 1/0. It’s just a matter of figuring out the distances needed to travel to receive and translate. Then you take those early examples and speed them up to shorten the distance until you get any size ( high heat) photon receiving you want. But blue is probably easiest. Perhaps the liquid oxygen optical switch will help. Then you build solid optical switches in each wave length and each receiver ship, likely different distances based on wave function until you get them small enough.

Easiest way to do this is to build them on stands (rural or on top of buildings) that have no interruptions within their path, or the ability because light refracts on mass to aim it as needed. You’ll lose packets if you hit a bird, clouds or smog. Any diffusion. I wonder what the accuracy if teleportation was within. Which boundary. Probably classified.

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F function determined by wavelength depth, speed. Position relative to others in series until we reach f alpha or the function asked for. Refraction plays a big part in this too.

Transmission both forwards and backwards. Hits wave length. Gather wavelength at specific point. Determine value by mapping wave lengths values in physical space as numerical weights or as percentages or what have you–some operator through the deterministic material. Wave length can continue or stop but it comes into contact with receiving layer or the function layer which accepts the photon and creates a value. Continues southward until all functions and types of functions are determined.


This is what I’ve got so far. I don’t know if it will work but it’s what I would try to see what happens.

Edit 1/29/19:

Interstellar travel using relative gravity canister (using black and white holes) to create gravitational wave tunnels so that canister may Enter the new time/space area and travel safely faster to near C and back down again safely.

Basically you send out gravitational waves, which have been compensated so that they do no oscillate but remain a constant variable within a range of acceptable outputs and condense time as many times as the canister can output to compensate for the magnitudes of powers of gravity/distance shortened cubed and then reverse output to lengthen time allowing it to slow to nearly a stop or some relative speed need for entry into star system.

Basically the acceleration function is an upside down parabola:

Starting at (-5,0) the starting location and increasing acceleration of the ship at time/space compressesion, up until the y intercept. (0,6) the point where it’s reached its maximum safe and expected compression rate (compresses to a single point when viewed from the outside) and/or the mid point of travel and begins to slow down at an increasing rate until it reaches it destination of (5,0) where it can rejoin normal gravity for that area, the gravitational waves can be directed to their decay path for safe disposal, and the trip is over in relative moments while still “traveling” in normal gravity.

Since every time you enter a gravitation wave tunnel it (I think) condenses space/ time either to the power of the gravitational constant/some distance, or the sum of the powers of condensing times the number of times it’s been condensed which is much greater. So you’d need a white hole excitement field to be able to produce enough electron to withstand the forces.

Something to think about is that each time you send out gravitational wave tunnel it’ll decay so travel will need to be guided to not interfere with excitable atoms/planets, plus you’ll leave a trail.

Thanks for reading.


Jordan Townsend.